Anxiety: Social Conditioning

Anxiety?

Every one of us faced this situation at one time or another... We feel anxious before some big thing…

I myself had anxiety for quite some years now... Although I didn’t have it from birth I developed it in my late teens… I didn’t know I had anxiety, it was like a fancy word that can only be used by the rich people of the first world. For as long as I can remember my childhood was worry-free... And my mom was even sad that I don’t get nervous or think about the future ever... She thought I have a lack of planning or dreams for the future… Although I accept that it was quite true, I was not as aimless as she thought of me... It is understandable, as moms are always like this, they make the habits of their children sound as big as a universe…

But sometimes I ask myself, why I got anxiety? Did I get to know the reality of the outside world and got scared?

Did I think I can’t do well by myself and I got anxiety?

But when I think about it, something different comes up…

Society teaches us to be good and productive members of society, but not only that they also teach us to be like them... They don’t want us to be highly individual or highly different that we think about ourselves all the time… I can understand, it has its own benefit as this makes a society stay together and people at least don’t kill each other…

But the problematic thing is that society doesn’t want us to be worry-free or free of self-doubt… I remember I got anxious when I was in the 11th standard of school… I did an okay kind of result in school 10th, I wanted to take science as I thought that I can do maths better than history or geography, but my teachers didn’t want me to do soo... They thought the stream science was only for brilliant students... Of course, I can't relate to that, bcz the science teachers didn’t seem like that to me at all, rather sometimes even seemed the opposite…

I eventually thought I am dumb headed but I can do it, I took science… It is not about being dumb or smart, it is about understanding the concept… None of the people around me was happy…

Then started the torture, people in school and even in tuition behaved very bad with me.. They teach me stuff and just made me remember every day that I can’t do it…

No no, it was not only a special case for me, I came to know that many, mostly all my friends went through this situation of constant bullying and harassment in schools and tuition… I got scared if I fail what will happen? That made me develop anxiety… And I was sick… I vomited and had insomnia, I wanted to escape. and I even thought of ending my life… It is funny that how all these serious things are caused only by some people’s foolish behaviour…

Now the time has changed… I still have anxiety and I also had various panic attacks in my college life, but now I know the name of it, and how to get over it… I am trying my best to get over it, and I am better now…

But when I think about it in retrospect, I think it was not the fault of my teachers or the people around me... They were not the culprit... The culprit was society... Society wants us all the think the same thing, do the same activities, that will make us all the same and it will be easy for them to control us…

The people who behaved badly toward me were the people who were also bullied, behaved badly with and also had that anxiety. It is like an unwritten rule of society that you must suffer and you can’t be happy... This is an unwritten conclusion that if you are happy and satisfied and very individualistic, you will not do something for society but rather for your own sake, and that wouldn’t be very good for the group as a whole and the rulers who are trying to rule us... At the end of the day, we all know fear is the biggest weapon for our enemies… The teachers actually did their job, they reached me to be scared and fear the world, how to think less of myself, and how to always feel bad and they were supporting all the negative feelings society is cultivating for generations. Bravo…. 👌👌

So I came to the conclusion that society creates anxiety, and it itself says it is bad to have mental health issues... This is unknown propaganda to not make you grow and be yourself… If we need to stop anxiety for the population, then we must unlearn everything which is been taught to us from generation…

Mental health should be on-topic for everyday conversation and mental health facilities should also be taken care of mainly for the poor… But the real problems would not go until the society or the ruling class don’t want to control us, or we can manage to break free of them…