Adity Sanyal

 I remember when I was 9 years old, I thought about "who I am" for the very first time.. I was in the toilet, taking my sweet sweet time thinking about various things people can think about in the toilet.. we didn't have mobile phones then.. we only had one mobile which was used for calling purposes for everyone.. so there was no chance of taking your mobile to poo..  there I was thinking about life and death.. that people die and it all ends somehow... and our lives will end too.. my parents, my loved ones, my friends, includinging me, we all will die one day.. and it seemed impossible, weird, because it seemed not normal.. then came to mind the thought, what happens when I die..  I got scared.. because somehow I felt attached to my inner self.. I didn't know what it was.. I just knew that was "I" that I talk with.. whenever I fight with friends, I give my "I" the excuses why I was right.. and then when I feel happy or sad or think or do anything,...

When I thought about starting a blog first thing that came to my mind is that I don't have money, so I have to search for free website ideas and came to this, which is not a website but a blog. but it is still pretty fine until I don't have any income, when I will have one, I will pay for a good website. the second thing that came into my mind was in am just the worst at writing. When it comes to writing stuff in English I will manage it on exams and stuff but it is nowhere enough to write a blog post. My writing is still a very big embarrassment for me. Whenever I post something here, I reread the post so much and at last, I get tired and just post it. 😖😖 Spellings are complete blunders for me. I never remembered the spelling of some very big words and while writing some words come to my mind which I use in writing which feels good, but is some big words, most of the time I write it wrong and I need to correct it afterwards. Thinking that I am not worthy of writing stuff onl...

I recently watched a video of Ali Abdaal where he said that if he can go back to his past self and start again, he will definitely do more journaling because as "the journey before the destination" matters the most, it will always make me remember the things I went through. So I think why not? I am doing journaling for some time now, not regularly, but I do have some phases in my life, where I do profuse journaling and then I just stop doing that again after some time I start. So I am gonna make this a blog thing, so I will have to post something about my life here anyway. It will motivate me to do more journaling. 😅😅 People are not watching these blogs so much, so I think nobody will notice that I am posting something here every week, so, there is no fear of judgment. And also why in the world would somebody would like to read about my feelings and my life? So it is pretty fine. 😑😑 Carrier Crisis So today is day 1 of journaling in this blog thingy. I started this blog fo...