WHY YOUR 20s MATTER

 

 

Losing him was blue, like I'd never known

Missing him was dark gray, all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know 

Somebody you never met 

But loving him was red 

Loving him was red

This is what the 20s feel like to me.. The feeling of the sun on my skin, the thrill of not knowing your future, the job you are going to do, the thing you will spend your life doing, the person you are gonna spend it with..

Your 20s is the time when we make new friends and the old friends grow apart.. And we learn new things...

If we divide our life into seasons then the 20s are the summer.. It is the time of hard work, tiredness, the excitement to be in the beach and have a nice basketball match.. The sweat and heat, and all the exhaustion.. But after all this, the next day feels even more exciting to live.. The new hopes, new dreams, new excitement...

When we enter our 20s finishing college, or nearly getting over it, we think, we are adults for long enough already.. Feels like we know what it is like to be an adult.. But soon we come to realize that it is all wrong.. 

Every day we learn something new about the life we are living.. Something new about the world, and the people around us..

We accept so many things, as the teenage hormones start to subside, and we know we are not that special, nor that we can change people or things.. Research says that people start becoming more right-wing, in their late twenties, when they see that there is really no hope, nor they can change the rules of the society..

With this comes a gloomy season or feeling lost.. Everybody goes through an existential crisis in their twenties... But also we overcome it.. Everybody does.. This is what life is about.. Life is about living learning and moving on..

As I have completed my half-twenties, I am finally accepting where I am.. And I am accepting the new mentality of being adult and old, kinda.. Getting old is scary, and it is scary to live to be old.. I know I would be more scared when I will be 30 or 40 or 50...

Also, I had extreme grief that I couldn't enjoy my twenties as I wanted to.. I couldn't be as happy as I hoped.. That I didn't see the meaninglessness of life before, that I didn't understand my feelings before.. That I cared about things that didn't matter at all.. That I cried more than I imagined, or hoped that I would cry.. tbh I cried in my twenties more than ever in my life..

And I used to think that this is bad.. But I think this is life.. That my life is more enriched and more fulfilling and more exciting, and more thrilling..

The more I live, the more I want to live.. The more I want to feel, the more I want to be happy, the more I want to be sad, the more I want to love people, the more I want to hug people, and be loved, and eat, and drink, and see the beauty of the world..

Life doesn't end in your twenties like we are made to believe, rather life starts in your twenties.. Not only in your twenties but rather all the time, whenever you look around, that is where life begins.. That is where life is waiting for you..

People will love you, and they will hate you.. And that is okay.. You are supposed to do that too.. Don't shy away from life.. Don't shy away from anything.. 

What I learned from my twenties is that be out there.. Don't stay inside your mind, thinking about what people will think about you.. I know they may think bad about you.. B
ut twenties are for your freedom, for your hopes, for your soul to spread out their wings and take a dive in the sky...